What if all of your efforts may be totally useless? Would you do it anyway?

Original artwork by yours truly.  Gellie Print with tempera paint, akua ink, collaged newsprint & digital printmaking techniques

Original artwork by yours truly.  Gellie Print with tempera paint, akua ink, collaged newsprint & digital printmaking techniques

What if all of your efforts may be totally useless?  Would you do it anyway?

What is the thing that you have to do?  The thing that if you didn't do it would be violating who you are?

What is the thing you can't imagine not doing? 

For me, it's making art.

 

I wake up in the morning and I think about making

How things can come together

How things are made

How I respond to them

Sometimes I worry about my hands

If they were to get injured

I wouldn't be able to make things in the way I have grown accustomed to

Sometimes I worry about losing my eyesight

and I would not be able to see things in my special way

 

I was recently asked to put my art in a student show. I felt honored to. At the same time I felt burdened by "putting the thing in a frame". This is where I have often thought I fall short.

But this time!

This time I made a promise to my artist self I would see this through.

 

So I

put the thing in a frame

took it for a drive

got it to the place (in the nick of time)

and

I wondered how was I going to feel when I saw my art on the wall of the gallery

I almost forgot to go to the opening.

Drove myself to the place

I made it through the crowd

Poured a glass of wine

Ate a bite of cheese

What if they decided to skip my thing?

Low grade panic

No worries

I found it

They gave it its own mini wall

I thought I should take a selfie with it

I didn't

Instead I snapped a photo and said to myself I would come back another time for the selfie

I haven't yet

And

I probably won't

I left having learned showing my art is not why I make art

I make art for sake of making art (I knew this)

I don't mind showing it

But would prefer if someone else did all the hustle part for me

 

If you're into looking at art and would like to see a piece of mine, too.  Check out the 2016 Student Show at Creative Arts Workshop in New Haven