What if all of your efforts may be totally useless? Would you do it anyway?
What is the thing that you have to do? The thing that if you didn't do it would be violating who you are?
What is the thing you can't imagine not doing?
For me, it's making art.
I wake up in the morning and I think about making
How things can come together
How things are made
How I respond to them
Sometimes I worry about my hands
If they were to get injured
I wouldn't be able to make things in the way I have grown accustomed to
Sometimes I worry about losing my eyesight
and I would not be able to see things in my special way
I was recently asked to put my art in a student show. I felt honored to. At the same time I felt burdened by "putting the thing in a frame". This is where I have often thought I fall short.
But this time!
This time I made a promise to my artist self I would see this through.
put the thing in a frame
took it for a drive
got it to the place (in the nick of time)
I wondered how was I going to feel when I saw my art on the wall of the gallery
I almost forgot to go to the opening.
Drove myself to the place
I made it through the crowd
Poured a glass of wine
Ate a bite of cheese
What if they decided to skip my thing?
Low grade panic
I found it
They gave it its own mini wall
I thought I should take a selfie with it
Instead I snapped a photo and said to myself I would come back another time for the selfie
I haven't yet
I probably won't
I left having learned showing my art is not why I make art
I make art for sake of making art (I knew this)
I don't mind showing it
But would prefer if someone else did all the hustle part for me
If you're into looking at art and would like to see a piece of mine, too. Check out the 2016 Student Show at Creative Arts Workshop in New Haven