i love ideas. i make or intuit tons of them. some are quite excellent.
i discovered a group of women who believe in indulgences like baths and enjoying food.
i took a bath last night.
can i be in your club?
i also jammed a combo #1 and polished it off with ice cream. i enjoyed every moment of it.
last year when i turned 38, my great aunt wished me happy birthday and went on to say " you are in the prime of your life- enjoy it." she planted a seed. i am in the prime of my life. i don't want to be bustling around unless i want to be bustling around.
once i enjoyed the perfect stillness of being sick- no demands, no queries, no need to be productive.
it was glorious.
today i am trying my hand at stillness when i am well. i am in the prime of my life, after all.
i am deciding it doesn't need to be some dramatic declaration that's a response to me putting too much on my plate.
there shall be no struggle around it.
there's no stillness after struggle, only recovery. and i don't want to spend the prime of my life recovering.